What is the most pointless thing you spent time trying to figure out/learn?
Accepting the fact that I will die someday.
Since my childhood , I have been extremely paranoid of diseases and any and every disease would make me feel as if my days are numbered. I was scared of getting diagnosed or even visiting the doctor. I have spent countless hours listening to my heartbeat and trying to estimate when it would stop. After I recovered from any disease I would consider myself lucky that i was alive.
There were nights I could not sleep when I would think of the surrounding world without me. After I got access to the internet and became an expert in googling my symptoms , a small pain here and there in my body was enough to make me feel that I have got a deadly disease in me.
However, I dont know how but slowly I started accepting the fact that I am as ephemeral as anybody else. May be age , maturity or love did its trick on me. At this moment I am happy the way I am . I try not to think about things I cant control !