What's the loneliest birthday you've ever had?
Funny you ask, as it was my most recent birthday, number twenty-two.
My family left on a travel soccer game for my brother, and I was left alone with only my younger brother. We didn't talk much, he mostly stayed home. I made some lunch and stayed home to. I went out a bit, but not really interacting much. Went to the post office to get my birthday card and a job application decline. Went to the store for some foods. Then back home. I chatted with my penpal from Europe, and ate some flan.
I did something else I sort of regret too.
I went yet again to the store for steak and lamb as a dinner for my brother and I. We went to church the next morning and later I went for a movie, courtesy of my aunt and her internet coupon skills.
It was kinda lonely. Maybe I wish I had a partner, or at least a best friend. It would have been nice to have more company and I would only blame myself for not seeking that. Next one will be better.
It may have been the year I had a birthday party and my mom took me aside to ask me a question. Meanwhile everyone paired of/grouped off for a scavenger hunt without realizing it left me without a partner. I was desperately fighting tears as I left my house to see if I could find some other kids, but I was introverted and shy more than anyone realized and was very uncomfortable with the idea.
I was very lonely and sad. But I heard a "God whisper". Like God spoke to me and said this is for you, and I looked up to my left and saw the most glorious blazing red-orange ball of light (falling star?) lighting up the twilight sky. It just was incredible. When I caught up to the others, I asked if anyone else had seen it, but nobody had. I still felt sad and lonely, but not invisible. And I've never seen anything like it since. It was huge.
Sometimes I to lazy to celebrate my birthday concentrated on other important things in my life. So I was never sad.
And everytime I spent time for preparations in a birthday, I such invited the person I want to see.
And all of them came having a nice day.
But I remember a birthday I felt broke as well, and going to cry. This feelings belongs to my alcohol and cannabis consume at this birthday and my burnout.
I was the most drunken person on my own birthday, kicking everything out of my home because I got terrible.
It was the worst birthday with 22 years. But many person like me, so I were happy the most time I celebrate my birthday with the friends who knew me.